Standing on the Edge

Today I started properly thinking through what the youth work at CJC will look like in the future.  It's a little bit strange if I'm honest.  I basically have a blank canvas, on which to sketch out some ideas as to how the youth work will develop, grow and reach out.

I really enjoy this kind of thing, but it feels a little bit like I'm walking out into the unknown, or standing on the edge of something.  Currently, there is so much I don't know!  I can make decisions, plan sessions, organise events and dream for the future, but above all of that I'm praying that God will come.

It feels a little bit like this in my own life at the moment.  Over the past year my relationship with God has changed dramatically and I'm holding on to some awesome promises.  However, in all the change, moving and newness those things have gone on hold slightly.  I don't feel like that's a bad thing, because I know that God's not going to let me forget what he's spoken, it's like we've taken a slight detour, but still heading in the same direction.  I feel like I'm standing on the edge, waiting to see what happens next.  I'm living with great anticipation, expectation and excitement.  I want to press on, step up and live in a way that is outrageously different because of the grace of God on my life.

I guess the challenge to all of us is to continue pressing in for more, to allow God to mould, shape and discipline us, to appreciate the time when we can stand on the edge, admire the view and take a breath, and then to be prepared to risk everything and leap into all that God has for us.